Jun 1, 2008

Prayer Request Sunday

Hey my friends, how are you? Hope you are seeking God with all of your hearts and allowing Him to make your paths straight. As, I have been praying, God has been speaking to me about Kingdom increase and my willingness to be willing. I want to be able to say, "Yes, Lord," without hesitation and with the courage to follow Him.

I would love to pray for you. Could you use some prayer, are you struggling? Whether your need is big or small, give it to God. You'll be so glad that you did.
I have been practicing my testimony and as I have been going over what I can fit into my 15 minute time slot, God has shown me some interesting things about my life. He has shown me where some of my fears have come from and how the devil has tried to use that against me.
Now that I am aware, I can give it to Him. I keep praying for Him to strengthen me and for courage.

I also have been struggling with a deep hurt. I have been asking God to reveal to me the difference between hurt and offense.
The hurt came unexpected, and as it is related to my infertility - it has really been one that has tried to embed itself into my spirit. The hurt is very real, as are the tears I have been shedding. I am in a place of not knowing what to do with the hurt. How do you walk past it or through it, when it is so painful. Well, God told me the difference between hurt and offense is what you do with it. I guess I am still working that out. I certainly don't desire the bitterness that comes with offense. I am just not feeling strong enough to make any moves.

Relationships are hard, people will hurt you and let you down-this I have learned. I do know that God is my strength. That this affliction of infertility and the heavy sorrow that comes along with it, are something He has allowed in my life. I could be offended (angry, resentful-all to which leads to sin/wrong doing) at God for this affliction, or I could let Him use it to His glory. I can tell you that I have surrendered it many times, I have cried out to Him to keep me from bitterness of heart. This is just another test to see what I will do, it is one of the hardest ones I have ever had to face. My heartache is real, God knows my grief and honestly I believe He has counted every tear that has fallen these past 15 years.

I say all of this to say, I am not perfect, I am a work of God in progress. How easy it is for God's children to stumble or to fall away. I pray that as these things arise in your own lives, that you will seek Him. He cares and desires for us to come to Him. I am going to stay on my face about this, while I'm down there, I'd be happy to cry out for you too.

2 Chronicles 6:40"Now, O my God, I pray, let Your eyes be open and Your ears attentive to the prayer {offered} in this place.


Quinne said...

Hi Kimmie :) I love that you are a friend who prays for her friends (and others) - what a blessing!

I am so sorry that you are hurting, and I will be praying with you in that. Love, Q

Jill said...

I am sorry you are hurting also,I lack the words to offer advice.I cannot have birth children due to a health issue,and that is saddening at times.But I choose to look at it like this,if I could have birthkids I probably would not adopt,and the kids that we end up adopting will truelly be in an emergency need when we take them in.The need for adoption is great,as you know.Hugs

Also asking for prayer as we pick up our 2 fosterkids tommorow,as the TPR pprocess is just in the beginning stages and theirs a long road ahead of us.Thanks

Marilyn@Mixed Bouquet said...

I am so sorry about your pain. I can truly identify. I will be praying for you. Sometimes it all just takes time, ya know?

Please pray for Heather and her little girl. Heather has been fighting brain cancer for a year. He daughter was born with heart problems and her heart is fighting to live right now. Here's the website: http://especiallyheather.com

Greta Jo said...

Kimmie my friend- How can I pray for you?

Renata said...

I love your prayer request Sunday, Kimmie & I will be praying for you this week. Thankyou for sharing with us. Love & prayers
Renata :)

Bobbie-Jo said...


You wrote so transparently, with raw-ness. Thank you for sharing your heart and being real. You spur me on with your words of encouragement. I also love Sundays, to see what God has been doing here.

I will pray for you and the tears you have. May you know our God more intimately through your time "on your face".

A quick update on my nephew - his case goes back to court in Oct. Who knows what will happen then. Some days I am able to completely let go and trust...other days I dream...

julie said...

Praying for you tonight my friend.

gloria said...

It has been too long since I have visited your blog -- but I so enjoyed reading thru your recent entries. I thought you were adopting from Guatemala? What happened? I see now you are adopting from Ethiopia - and I am so happy for you as there is such a huge need there too!
I loved your post about hurts vs. offense. I am going thru a very painful expierence in my life right now and God is showing me a bit of the same thing... He is everything is He not? How wonderful a God we serve!

mama to 10, including 5 from Guatemala!

Kimmie said...

Hi Gloria;

Glad to have you over! Guatemala adoptions shut down, the country is trying to work it out, but as we didn't have our referral yet...we decided to switch to Ethiopia. We had been in the Guatemalan program since 2005 (we put it on hold to adopt a sibling group out of foster care)...anyhow, God released us and opened the door to Africa.

Be blessed.

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