Feb 9, 2010

Needing a Lift?


Sometimes hearts grow heavy. 
Sometimes spirits grow weary. 
Sometimes people disappoint you.

Sometimes things happen and you just don't understand why God would have let it happen that way.
Sometimes doors close in such a strange ways, and without hearing His voice.
When that happens it can leave you heartbroken.
Shattered even.

The ways of God are not our ways.
Though they seem hard at times, ultimately He knows what is best.
He sees beyond where I am standing, into tomorrow.
My vision is limited and sometimes my will in not His.

My heart is always for the needy and for bringing another into our fold.
Yesterday was hard.
As I opened Scripture with eyes full of tears, the Holy Spirit said, "Read Psalm 41."
As I did, I knew the Lord knew my heart.  

That He alone understands my desire to always bring another home.
Though He closed the door rather abruptly, He is here to catch my tears and hold them in a jar. 

My heart can use a lift, as it is carrying some weight it wants to be free of.  Scrolling through my pictures, I came across this one and thought it would be the perfect insert for the current need.

Psalm 16:11
You will teach me how to live a holy life.
Being with you will fill me with joy; at your right hand I will find pleasure forever.

Now, imagine that this isn't a picture of me and my sweet, funny children.  But imagine it is God holding me up, throwing me in the air, lightening my burdens and filling me with joy in His presence. 

And if you can't figure out what all of this means, I'll put it in not so poetic terms.  We will only be bringing one Princess home this journey, my heart had hoped for two.  Monday morning our papers accidently got submitted to Ethiopian court, now it means only one child can come home this time.  We had asked for them to wait...an accident or the hand of God?

I desperately need God.  Don't we all?  I am going to seek His face heavily today.  I need peace.
Yup, that is what I am going to do today.  How about you?

15 comments:

Kristine said...

Kimmie,

I'll be praying that God gives you the peace that surpasses all understanding. HE knows your heart and HE has a plan.

Shonni said...

I also pray that the LORDS peace would fill your heart!!!

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Sarah Dawn said...

Kimmie,
Your words spoke straight to my heart. I flew up in God's arms and giggled today. We too have laid down many dreams, stepping out of full time ministry, halting our adoption, as we enter a season of learning to trust His goodness. He is good always. I know it. I am learning to live it. But oh the joy to soar in His arms. As his little girl. Safe in the hands of my Abba Daddy.

Thank you for this post today, for being you, an instrument in His hands.
Sarah Dawn

Annie Chase said...

praying for you... I'm very sorry to hear what happened.

Katie said...

Oh, Kimmie. I know this is hard for you, but remember that God has plans to prosper you. And he will complete this work he has begun. He WILL prosper your family and, in his timing, it will be sweeter than you ever imagined this could be.

Psalm 145:19- "He fulfills the desire of those who fear him; he also hears their cry and saves them."

And that's just what he's going to do.

Hugs...

Katie :)

Mrs. MK said...

God is near to us. His Word is unfailing to sustain us through times of questioning and anxiety, dissapointed and discouragment. My verse for the day is Psalm 112:7.

Even when the bad news comes, our hearts are steadfast in Him.

Praying and loving you, Kimmie!

Anna said...

Kimmie, when I read this I am struck by God's mercy--obviously he only intends for you to bring one child home and has made it very clear. Wouldn't you (with your merciful heart) always be wondering whether you had worked hard enough to raise funds for a second child? Or a third :) . .

And I can't help but think He has planned just what is best for your 12-year old daughter. She must need to be the only new one this time. He's setting you up to succeed, honey.

Bird's Words said...

Kimmie, I am praying with you in this journey. I have to say that the first thing that came to mind as i was just praying was that your one Princess is going to need extra time and attention right now, and this is God's way of providing that. I will continue to flood his throne on your behalf.
I love you sweet friend.

Holly

Lovella ♥ said...

Oh Kimmie. . .chin up. . .you are such a sweet woman of God. Surely God will hear your prayers and bless you beyond your expectations. One step at a time.
It would have been my mom's 88th birthday today . .and my gift to her is doing my part to bring your wee one home .. .asap.

Jared and Krista said...

Oh Kimmie... I am sorry for your sadness and I will be praying for you. Continue to trust in God's timing and His way- it's always perfect and right. I miss talking to you. I am sorry I fell off the planet. I will continue to pray.

xoxoxoxox
krista

mom said...

Oh, Kimmie! {{{Kimmie}}} God knows your heart AND He sees the entire picture! Trust Him! He has a plan and it's often better than anything we can ever imagine!

Blessings,
Tammy ~@~

Amy said...

Oh Kimmie,

I am so sorry. I am praying for peace and comfort for you as you feel His hand at work in your life...all for good.

But oh I do understand how very much it hurts. Now that you are being lifted up and loved from Texas.

(((HUG)))

With Love and Prayers...

Renee said...

I am so sorry. Praying for peace.

We had a very hard week with losing a little one we had hoped to bring home too.

God is so faithful!

Saminda said...

Oh sweet lady. xo My heart feels your heart on this one. Still praying. Hard.
Lots and lots of love to you, Saminda xoxoxoxo

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