Aug 13, 2010

Friendship, Me and What God is Whispering

 Well, here I am.

Opening up to more of the Holy Spirit's touch.
Asking more questions about what needs to change in me. 
Asking my friends what they would like to see different in me. 
How they perceive me.
Some of the words that are spoken surprise me.
Some are hard.
But all of them are good, they open my eyes to more possibilities in Him.

God is speaking to me to be more friendly.  
 Really, I am a lover of people, but because of the hurt over the last 10 years of bad friendships; my heart has withdrawn and I am holding back from relationships.  I have become too cool. The Spirit is asking me to turn up the flame of Love, to reach out and trust Him in regards to friendships and people.

I am not sure exactly what this means, but I think it means I need to reach out and love more.  Love without fear of rejection.  Love without fear.  Asking God to help me with small talk, as two of my closest friends have said that I am not good at it. They actually said that I am deep and big, which sometimes scares people. But that they love me.  They said it is because of my passion and my obedience to God.

I am asking the One who is able to help to come and allow this change in me  to happen.  He is able and I am willing.
Sound exciting doesn't it?  

Actually, I am pretty tired.  Just thinking about it makes my knees a little weak and gets my heart pitter-pattering.  But I trust Him and know He is working this in me for my good.  Sometimes good stretches you, sometimes it makes you cry, sometimes it down right wears the knees out of your jeans, sometimes it makes you feel lonely, but always it works out for your good. And that is exciting.

Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.


GODthinker said...

I am so enjoying reading your posts about this. I know God wants to take me there as well, but I have been afraid to go. My heart longs for deep friendships, but too many walls have been built to avoid hurt. Even the thought of going to those hurt places hurts. I have not bought the book, but I might. Still working up the courage. If you think about me, please pray that I would open up to this journey as well. It can only make me a better person, which is what I want. Thanks for you blog!!

mom said...

{{{Kimmie}}} God will walk with you as He stretches you!

Here's to friends!

Tammy ~@~

Valerie said...

Wow Kimmie! Just the thought of walking through that makes me weak in the knees. Coming from someone whose only friends live 1400 miles away, this is something I should be asking God to work with me on. While I crave (true) friendship I'm not sure if I can handle the bare naked truth about who I really am and how others see me. I feel silly even saying that, but it's the truth. Anyway, thanks for sharing what you are walking through. It's something I really need to be doing myself. I'm here praying you through.

Karen said...

I love the photo! I always have a hard time knowing the difference between "this is who I am as God created me" and "this is how God is working in my life" as opposed to trying to "be" like someone I admire...if that makes any sense at all!

Shannon- said...

One of the things I was moved about years ago.. and still continue to work on everyday.... was wondering wether people percieved me as I percieved me. (Now I'm no people pleaser!! I thought in my heart I was acting for God.. but in reality, because of my own hang ups.. I realized I wasn't) I couldn't be a vessel for God's love if the love didn't flow through me to others. I think you're onto something!

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