Dec 13, 2010

Adoption, Fear and How to Overcome it to Move with His Spirit

If you have been following along over the past few weeks, you know that God is calling us into another adoption. Now if you know nothing about adoption, but have a curious heart to learn more, stick to this post and I will share something 

that will strengthen OUR faith.

This morning I called a prayer meeting, my Knight had already departed to the office for the day, but all the children and I gathered together in the living room.  I explained that we needed to seek God together (which we have done), but that I sensed a new level of urgency, as the parents are weary. 

Together we bowed our hearts before God and asked Him to guide our steps. Each child prayed, from our homemade 19 year old, down to the 2 year old who tapped me during prayer to ask if she could pray too. (Yes, be still my worried heart!)

The mother and father here are weary.  We have had a busy and hard two years. We have had some need of attitude adjustments and training that has plum wore us out.  Financially we have been stretched, during a very difficult financial time here in America.  My husband's business is doing well, but things are not what they used to be, saying this to say that as we have begun to look at agencies and fees...our hearts have been heavy. Everything has made an increase, not in tiny numbers, but in large leaps to figures that make us doubt this road.

However, this morning God reminded me in particular, through the tears, that He has been faithful.  He is faithful and everything in this world is under His control.  We just need to come to Him with faith and ask Him for what we need, believing that He will show us, fill us, lead us and truly finance this adoption!  

He has sold a cattle on a thousand hills to bring the children He desired into our family in the past adoptions.  He reminded me gently that He will make a way, past the numbers that are looking to be near to $30,000 dollars.  My Knight and I looked at those numbers with eyes that do not see as the Lord does.  We had grown weak in the knees, we had trembled in fear instead of standing confident in faith.  

We need to be forgiven, as doubt is fear and it casts out faith.  
Fear keeps God from working in our lives, it restricts the flow of His Spirit.  

But now I see.  I can share with my Knight tonight what God has shown me and what He has spoken to me through my childrens' prayers this morning.  As each carried our burdens before God, tears flowed from not only my eyes.  God is moving our hearts to greater faith, to mightier acts of service for His Glory.  

I will share some of the verses that helped me in this journey for today
...indeed nothing is too hard for MY God!

Jeremiah 32:27
 “I am the LORD, the God of all mankind. 
Is anything too hard for me"

Psalm 25: 9, 14  (NIV)
9.  He guides the humble in what is right
   and teaches them his way. 
 14.  The LORD confides in those who fear him;
   he makes his covenant (promises) known to them.
John 15: 7
  If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you.

Colossians 3: 15,17

Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace.
And be thankful.
And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus,
giving thanks to God the Father through him.


Amie said...

Your faith makes my heart so happy!

If only we could all look at things through God's eyes...

Anonymous said...

Oh Kimmie!
I so needed to hear this today! I am home with a sick child and took a few minutes to catch up on your blog. As always, I come away encouraged and reminded that God is in control. We are still seeking Him for direction and believing for answers. Thank you for sharing your heart! I pray you and your family have a blessed Christmas!

Anonymous said...

Hi, Kimmie -
After reading your blog entry just a bit ago I was reminded of an anecdote I had read a few months ago, but since I could not quickly remember *where* I had read it, I started googling what I could remember. I only got as far as "God just sold" when multiple iterations appeared. Here is the link for the first one on the google search. I send this to you for multiplied encouragement regarding God's timing.

His supply is sure, and His timing is perfectly connected to His wisdom and perspective. You and your family are such dear encouragements. I will be praying for you all in your current challenge. God bless you all again and again.
a frequent visitor :)

mom said...


Tammy ~@~

"Indescribable" said...

Yea, God is big, bigger than $30K, and you are such a good daughter to go boldly where he tells you!
I love your heart, (Have I said that before?)

Kate said...

I am moved by your faith and your admittance of weariness. The cost of having another child, whether by adoption or birth has skyrocketed. My oldest is 4 years old and was born 5 weeks early needing a full medical staff to come into this world and some extra care to ensure his health and yet he was $10,000 cheaper than his baby brother who came into this world with only a doctor and a nurse standing by waiting and I roomed in with him. Granted, we have insurance, but it doesn't cover everything.

When the Lord wants something done, He makes a way, and we marvel at how He works.

Karen said...

How neat that you gathered your children in challenge me! I need to remember to include the kids in these things they can see for themselves the awesome works of God.

Anonymous said...

Why not go through the foster care system again this time? It's nearly free and there are so many waiting children. Then you don't have to worry about finances and can storm ahead.
Just curious.

Kimmie said...

Hi Kate;

We have too many children for foster/adoption.


Renata said...

I'm so excited for you & I'll be praying just like your last couple of adoptions. I know God can & will provide & I know He loves how your heart is for the orphan.
Love to you all - praying each day for you....

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