I found myself unplugging in order to find myself...letting some things go and grasping other things a little bit tighter. Wanting solitude, craving it... but begging for true friendship to rid myself of aloneness. Asking myself questions that I don't have the answers to, but knowing that sometimes a question needs to be voiced in order to break the silence. In breaking there is always pain that needs to surface.
Pain and hurt aren't too big for God. He can handle all of our whys and how comes.
This morning I hand wrote out some quotes on friendship that seem to strike at my heart strings. I hung them up around my house. I knew 6 of my friends would be coming over tonight, to embark on our journey together into finding us in the midst of so much.
I'd be happy to share a few of them with you too...
"The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you.
You've just got to find the ones worth suffering for."
"When you feel like giving up, remember why you hung on for so very long in the first place."
and one that might catch your heart too...
"Sometimes you put up walls not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down."
Somehow finding myself means I need to open up to others in my search. Everything in me shouts curl up in a ball, don't take the risk, it is WAY too scary out there. Friendship you know can be risky business, these matters of the heart. But realizing that I need to gather in order to reap, so collecting a few of my friends and sharing together what it is that God is up to in our midst. I know it isn't just me, as my 6 friends all are going through similar times in their lives.
And I am off...