In just a few days my friend and companion for 11 years, will be moving thousands of miles away. She has graced my life, holding close not only physically through the good and bad times that these years brought with them, but spiritually too. We have prayed through the years, seeing both victory and loss in both our lives. Oh to have a sister in the Lord, to have and to hold!
I am very sad.
I can't imagine what my life will look like. I also am sad for my children who will be losing their Aunt Beth and Uncle Nate. They have poured so generously into all of our lives. How difficult to imagine the coming years without them. Honestly, I don't want to, but this change isn't in my hands (once again).
Today we will gather in my living room once again. We will sip coffee and chat. We will exchange hearts and not because of Valentine's Day, but because we are bonded in love. I will bless her with love, reminding her of her worth and value to my life. We will separate by many miles, but our hearts will remain tied.
She said we ultimately will land in the same place-
but somehow right now I am not finding comfort in looking to our arrival in heaven.
You see I am selfish, I want her to stay. I want her to grow old side by side. I don't like this new direction God is taking us in.
But wishes don't make things happen. Sometimes a season comes to an end and not the way you want. Sometimes you go through seasons where God removes a LOT. And He waits to see what you will do. Will you quietly sneak away? Will you turn your eyes from Him or will you cling all the more to Him?
Looking back, I can see how times like these have brought me closer to Him. I lost my father while I was pregnant, I lost children to adoptions where God closed the door, I have lost friends who painfully rejected me, I have had recently to release my oldest to a far away corner of the U.S...
Finding my heart aching for a new season, one that brings a flood of joy and takes away the heaviness that keeps trying to to crush my spirit.
Spring is coming, a new season...
hoping with it comes a lightness, that will delight my heart!
Oh Lord, give me strength and courage...to face whatever the next season brings.
I have no talent for making new friends, but oh, such a genius for fidelity to old ones.
George Du Maurier
The friendship that lasts are those wherein each friend respects the other's dignity
to the point of not really wanting anything from him.
The proper business of friendship is to inspire life and courage.