Aug 23, 2010

Rocks, Friendship-What is the Connection?

1 Samuel 2:1-2
 "There is no one holy like the LORD; there is no one besides you; there is no Rock like our God.
2 Samuel 22: 2
He said: "The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer
 Sometime in the middle of the night I woke, as my eyes adjusted to the blackness about me, God began to speak to me of  rocks.  

As I am happy to sleep this was rather odd, but in the pitch of night, there am I laying seeing visions of rocks. First I saw a huge boulder, I couldn't miss it because I was sitting upon it.  Then, I looked out and saw many good size rocks, all scattered about, next came smaller and smaller stones, until at last God put one stone into my hand.  This stone was different.  It had been made smooth by time, it was a perfect fit in my hand or so I thought. 

The next thing I knew God had me before a large lake, it was still very dark.  He told me to skip this rock across the water.  I so wanted to just hold the rock, because it fit so nicely in my hand (and God knows I have a thing for nice rocks.)  I looked at the rock in my hand, in obedience I bent forward and skipped it over the surface of the water. It bounced across happily many times, then like all rocks do, it sank.  The water was very still, even the ripples disappeared with the rock.

God spoke to me that rocks are like friendships. 

The one I sat upon was a rock like no other, the rock being Jesus.  It was immovable in my life; as He is my friend forever.   The next rocks were close friends, they were more permanent, but even they could be removed, if God so said.  The stones I passed were acquaintances, not truly friends, but ones who had had moments of my life.  This last rock was the friendship that I have been struggling with, one I have grieved greatly for.  In showing me that it seemed perfect, shows me that it was just for a time, not something God had intended for long term, not something He meant to use as some of the larger stones in my life.  The stone had given me pleasure, but I had to do as God said (which is what I did in real life) and release it from my hand.

I have asked God to help me to understand this loss.  To let me know what it is I should do.  For now, this is what the Lord is asking of me ~ To let it go, to enjoy what I had, but to keep my heart fixed on Him.

I will never be able to skip a rock again, without remembering this little vision that God woke me for.  
Part of my healing is in letting go.  Letting go is hard. Everything in me screams no.  You see, I am a fixer, I want to fix things and make things right.  I want everyone to be happy.  I want it to be a happy ever-after-kinda-story, not a good-bye.

Life and friendship is hard.  But what other option is there really, death and loneliness?  I dare say no.  

Yet will I hope and believe that He does indeed work all things for our good. 

Psalm 61:2
From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I.


Karen said...

What a beautiful vision...we were on vacation for 9 days but now we are back and I'm catching up on all the blogs. And while I was away, the book came! I'm excited to read it again with you. I just got it this morning and I've devoured it already in between loads of wash and caseworker visits and meals etc. I always need to know how a book ends so I read them quickly. Then I like to go back and read them slowly and sometimes even digest them...pick out the pieces that relate to my life...I consider myself "friend-making challenged". But God has been helping me with this...and I think this book (and your blog) may be another piece in this puzzle.

Rob said...

Hi Kimmie, for sure death is a lonely place, more lonely than people realise so it is right that you don't go there. Also if a friendship is not meant to be kept then it is best that it sinks because one that keeps floating back and forth just taunts you and reminds you of what you once held and a real friend would never hurt you that way so even if you were to hold it again the feeling would not be the same as before. I'm sure there is a big rock for you somewhere. Rob.

Debbie Doughty said...

Great post, Kimmie. Isn't it just like our God to reveal these truths to you in such a personal, meaningful way?

Greta Jo said...

hmm, Kimmie friendships are so hard to find and keep. I had to let go of a fair weather friend as it was very unhealthy. I pray daily for a faithful "true friend".

Annie Chase said...

I got my book today too :) I'm so excited. Yes, I love pooh bear, I can often get some great life lessons out of the simple things A.A. Milne writes for Pooh.
your post this morning was so enriching and eye-opening to me, thank you for being so vulnerable and open with all of us.
I love 1st Samuel. It's one of my favorite books of the old testament. It's great that you took the references about rocks in connection to your vision about friendship from the books of Samuel because those two books have always spoken to me the most in terms of friendships as Jonathan and David's friendship and brotherhood was so strong.
all my love,

Renata said...

What a beautiful vision & message (although definitely painful to let go). May God be very close to you through this more difficult time.

By the way I checked on that book you had mentioned, but it isn't available in Australia yet.

Have a lovely day resting in the knowledge that you can now release this friendship - sometimes just the struggle of what to do is so tiring.
God bless

Bobbie-Jo said...

Wow. This really makes clear a good-bye I had to say this summer. Thanks.

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