Prayer Request Sunday & It's a GIRL!

Thank you all, how blessed I am to have so many who are willing to stand with me in prayer for this adoption, which God has called us to. A weight has been lifted as of this morning, we went to church today, still not having heard from God.

Well, honestly I heard from Him right after our referral from our agency on Monday... it was firm in my heart to say no, thinking that God had called me to bring home two. I went to bed Monday night and God spoke to me in a dream...He said, "I know."

I woke thinking that this was strange -was this confirmation that I was to say no, though He never said just that? My heart was leaning heavily toward no. I went to the computer with coffee in hand and reopened the 50 or so pictures from our agency of, 'The Little Beauty.' Immediately, I felt confusion, no longer certain of my decision and feeling that I didn't have enough of a confirmation to say no and forever pass on this little one ever being ours.

The compassion for orphans is huge for me, but I know they are not all meant to be raised and loved by us. But, if this was a blessing from His hand, destined for me...how could I lightly make such a decision without His leading? Of course I know that 'He knows'...but truly it was and is about me trusting HIM.

I never heard 'Yes or No'....I have been weeping uncontrollably, praying, seeking and waiting. God told me not to call my friends, the, "Trust Me" was to be all that I could hold on to. This was hard, because I truly have some wise godly friends, who I would have loved to call over to pray with me. This was not to be though.

We left on Wednesday, (my husband's vacation time-his office was closed-actually we were to have left originally on Monday...but we were detained, which meant we were home to receive the referral)- after telling Julie from our agency that we were still unsure, but to send us the package. We couldn't ask for any more time.

We left for our cabin in Vermont for a few days, with intention of closing up for the winter, but also for a time to press in and hear from God specifically on this much urgent decision. Time was ticking away and our agency was only allowing for 10 days for all the referral paperwork to be signed and notarized back to them. Before we left, we hired an international doctor (as required) and sent them the money to view the Little Beauty's pictures and medical papers. We did this, as we still didn't know what God was requiring of us, time was of the essence. My heart was still leaning toward the no, as I had absolutely no peace nor did my Knight.

Of course my children were suddenly silent, even the 'have to be heard' ones. Daily, I asked everyone if they had heard anything from the Lord. Daily, nothing.

We came back rested (thankfully), but with no clear understanding and no wisdom.

We arose early today to go and worship at our church. I planned to go up for prayer after service, as pretty much is my normal stance. However, my Pastor began with apologizing with the sermon text, but that he felt pressed by God to preach on Matt. 25: 34-40. Our Pastor doesn't hop around in his teaching, so to jump into the middle of a passage for him is unusual. We normally go through books for months or years at a time.

Tears began to flow and both my husband and I looked at each other, we knew at the same moment. Little Beauty may only be one child, what the 'two' was, I may never know, perhaps it is our next adoption, we know more are still coming. I know, that it was the Lord who said it, I know that the Lord directs the path of His children, of which I am one.

Little Beauty has a need, we have a call, how can we pass her to the next in line? When I look into her face, I need to see Jesus. The Father has a plan for her life, He is going to rescue her and begin to lavish her out of His abundance.

The peace has come, now I am awaiting His Joy.

Thanks for praying for us, thank you for your faithful giving! We are up to $1,625 dollars with our adoption donations.

Can I pray for you this week? I am always happy to do it, while I was seeking for our need, I made sure that I lifted up yours too. God is that Big!

*I won't be able to publish pictures or share her name, until post adoption, but know that as soon as that happens (30-90 days) this blog will be covered with her arrival. More details to follow...so hang tight and please don't grow weary!

Love you all!