Prayer Request Sunday

Hey my friends, how are you? Hope you are seeking God with all of your hearts and allowing Him to make your paths straight. As, I have been praying, God has been speaking to me about Kingdom increase and my willingness to be willing. I want to be able to say, "Yes, Lord," without hesitation and with the courage to follow Him.

I would love to pray for you. Could you use some prayer, are you struggling? Whether your need is big or small, give it to God. You'll be so glad that you did.

I have been practicing my testimony and as I have been going over what I can fit into my 15 minute time slot, God has shown me some interesting things about my life. He has shown me where some of my fears have come from and how the devil has tried to use that against me.

Now that I am aware, I can give it to Him. I keep praying for Him to strengthen me and for courage.

I also have been struggling with a deep hurt. I have been asking God to reveal to me the difference between hurt and offense.

The hurt came unexpected, and as it is related to my infertility - it has really been one that has tried to embed itself into my spirit. The hurt is very real, as are the tears I have been shedding. I am in a place of not knowing what to do with the hurt. How do you walk past it or through it, when it is so painful. Well, God told me the difference between hurt and offense is what you do with it. I guess I am still working that out. I certainly don't desire the bitterness that comes with offense. I am just not feeling strong enough to make any moves.

Relationships are hard, people will hurt you and let you down-this I have learned. I do know that God is my strength. That this affliction of infertility and the heavy sorrow that comes along with it, are something He has allowed in my life. I could be offended (angry, resentful-all to which leads to sin/wrong doing) at God for this affliction, or I could let Him use it to His glory. I can tell you that I have surrendered it many times, I have cried out to Him to keep me from bitterness of heart. This is just another test to see what I will do, it is one of the hardest ones I have ever had to face. My heartache is real, God knows my grief and honestly I believe He has counted every tear that has fallen these past 15 years.

I say all of this to say, I am not perfect, I am a work of God in progress. How easy it is for God's children to stumble or to fall away. I pray that as these things arise in your own lives, that you will seek Him. He cares and desires for us to come to Him. I am going to stay on my face about this, while I'm down there, I'd be happy to cry out for you too.

2 Chronicles 6:40"Now, O my God, I pray, let Your eyes be open and Your ears attentive to the prayer {offered} in this place.