Jul 13, 2008

My Bountiful Garden...Prayer Request Sunday

I have to say that my two weeks off did me well. Thank you to those of you who were lifting me up in prayer. I needed a reprieve and made time to spend some quality time with the Lord. I needed to hear from Him, as my heart was getting heavy, my spiritual vision was feeling rather dim and I was weary.

God spoke to me a bit the first week-He didn't tell me anything earth moving. But that He was speaking was good, though my heart longed for something deeper and meatier. I left vacation feeling less than rested, our boys (5 and 6) were not the angels we had hoped for. We had hoped to find rest and relaxation, silly I guess, because in reality parenting is 24-7 with no holidays or vacations, right?!

Anyhow, I intended on jumping back into blogging, but my heart was so desperate for God, that I asked Him if I held off on blogging (which to me is a ministry God has given me)...that I wondered if He wouldn't bring me deeper with Him and renew my vision.

Before I left for our vacation, I came to the realization that I had no vision for this adoption we are in the midst of. I spoke to me mum about the fact that I just couldn't "see" it. You see, I am a 'seer', it is a gift that God has blessed me with-but I was coming up with nothing. My mum said it was probably due to the heartache we experienced in our Guatemalan adoption. Fear can kill your godly vision for sure. I went to my Knight and asked him if he could "see." My Knight is not a 'Seer,' though he said he can see us holding our Ethiopian children. This gave me some peace, but I needed more.

God blessed me the second week. He spoke, He spoke a lot and it definitely blessed my heart and mind.

I will share one thing He gave me:

I was reading a devotional by Hudson Taylor (Spiritual Secrets), in it it said to ask the Lord what He wanted 'me' to ask Him. Immediately as I jotted it down in my journal, the Holy Spirit reminded me of something He had spoken several months ago. He had told me to ask Him for twins.

I have to tell you that I was 'Much Afraid,' I was thinking He might be asking just to have me ask and that maybe it had nothing to do with twins. My heart is so aching for a baby after all the years of infertility and all the years I yearned for another, that I was honestly terrified to ask Him or believe Him for it.

I sat on my deck, as my youngest napped and my two oldest were entertained by their Shakespeare scripts, crying. I explained to God my fear, and reminded Him of all I had been through with the years of infertility and how I have followed Him, regardless of the longing in my heart. He told me to ask Him.

So I did.

I thought I should do something else...but He told me to close my bible, my journal and the wee devotional book and instead head into my garden. I had weeding and pruning to do, so I went at it for awhile, then I decided I should pick some flowers for the house.

As I picked a big bouquet filled with beebalm, coneflower, daisies...a nice bunch~ a fat bumblebee began drinking from my hand-held garden.

Being the nut that I am, I began speaking to the fuzzy black and yellow bloke, blessing him and inviting him to have at any or all of my garden. Of course I also prayed over his little bumblebee health, with all the bee troubles we are hearing about... I figured a little bee prayer was appropriate ;-) He mostly ignored me, he was too thirsty to mind my little pep talk-honestly it could have been a she? Then another matching bumblebee came and also began drinking out of my bouquet. I realized how unusual this was, as I hadn't seen too many bees of late, and certainly not any that would be bold enough to drink from my hand held bouquet.

Then the Lord spoke. He told me that this bouquet was my children, it was the fruit of the harvest He had for my life. The two (twin) bumblebees, were the representatives of the two He would give us next, my Ethiopian children. You know children with dark skin and wrapped in all of God's golden promises (black and yellow-get it!). He would bring them to my 'bouquet' (family) and we would see His goodness again. They would be healthy and they would flourish in our bouquet he was picking and allowing me to hold.

Yes, I was crying again.

Yes, I do have moments that I don't cry, though not many. God has made me a tender hearted girl, and one who is feeling so much better.

(As I pasted this from my clipart collection...I didn't realize their were two bumblebees! I have had this for years and God reminded me as I was writing, that I could use this, God is so cool!)

The announcement....

We are now number 13 on our waiting list, for those who are still reading. We are also nesting like crazy. I am cleaning out drawers, cupboards and anything that will let me have at it.

And...yes today is Prayer Request Sunday so....

If you stopped by for prayer...leave me a comment or send me an email, God is amazing.


Erin said...

Dear Kimmie,
I was "tearing up" reading about your word from God and your refreshment in a dry and thirsty place. Our God is a GOOD GOD! Okay, now I'm crying again. I know we don't know one another (I left a message one other time) but your heart shines through in your words on this blog. Bless you, bless your family, and bless your new ones God will bring home!
Glad you're "back"
:) Erin

Amber said...

Your post is so good. My mom just gave me the same word, to ask God for what i want. We can always go to God's word for our encouragement and direction. Thanks for sharing.

Stacy said...

Beautiful, Kimmie.

I love to hear that God is tenderly speaking to your heart- and such hope! :)

And- #13!?!?!



Amrita said...

May the Lord give you the desires of your heart Kimmie. Keep waiting on Him. He will show you His way, don 't get discouraged. Waiting is hard to do.

Please pray for my Mom. She had a fall while walking up the church steps. No bones broken praise God but she has pain.

She is feeling rather low since my aunt died, had a tummy disorder and is not eating properly. Plray the spirit of heaviness to light from her.

julie said...

Wow, #13 how exciting. Thanks so much for sharing your heart. I love coming here because you are always so real.

God Bless,

the mother of this lot said...

I am so happy for you Kimmie! Ask and you shall receive!!

Anonymous said...

Hello Kimmie,
I find it amazing how God speaks to you. I wish I were that diligent at listening... something for me to grow in for sure.
I asked you to pray for a friend of mine and her newborn baby born four months premature. Praise God she is doing SO well!
Here is her update:

Thanks for praying, and I'm praying for your twins!

Amy said...

Thank you for sharing this blessing with us Kimmie! I love hearing how God is working in our lives and showing us that He is in control!

Our message yesterday at church was a reminder that He knows what is best for us. As hurtful as it is for us sometimes He does what is best for us. Even though we may not understand it. Ou rpastor also pointed out that He loves us more than anything! Even moe than we love out husbands or our children. Wow! That is ALOT of love!!

I have and will continue to pray for your journey. Just know that you are resting safely in His arms!

In His Love, Amy

Expat Mom said...

That`s great that you`ve hit #13! Yay! Can`t wait to see your new babies and I`m glad you`re back with renewed purpose.

BittersweetPunkin said...

...and who said 13 was an unlucky number? NOT that I believe in luck because I don't.....BLESSINGS for sure!!

Little Patch of Heaven said...

This is so touching. Thanks for sharing. I am experience similar feelings as you. It is nice to know that I am not alone.

Emily said...

lucky, lucky, lucky number 13.

BoufMom9 said...

I am so moved by your words. You "speak" with such honesty and beauty that you have moved me to tears.
I ask you to pray for my health. I am notat a placeright now where I really want to tell anyone why, but I need God to watch over me right now and help me through this next challenge.
I will be praying fr you, that your adoption goes smoothly! How absolutely wonderful!

Renata said...

Oh Kimmie, it is so good to have you back - you touched me again with your openness & honesty & faith in God - I am also tenderhearted & was crying along with you - God is just so good & amazing. I love the fact that you took time out to seek him. I am also excited about your adoption news - #13!!! WOW - God is so good!! Praying for your family & your new additions!
Renata :)

Renna said...

Oh, Kimmie! I am speechless. Now you 'see' it! Praise God!!!

Anonymous said...

What an amazing story,I just found your blog.We have been waiting for our little girl from Guatemala for ever so long,When you are in your prayer garden if you have a moment,would you say a prayer for our little Ava.We would love to get her home.

Lovella said...

Oh Kimmie. . I am so amazed at your tender and receptive heart to hearing God speak to you through Bumble Bees and flowers. We rejoice with number 13. It is getting closer and one day soon the post will be a celebration like no other.
I have a very worn copy of Spiritual Secrets as well .. I think I may add that to my summer read list.
Blessings on you my sweet friend.

Christine said...

I can so relate to the nesting. I hope your child is home soon!

My husband just got our little boy from the orphanage today!

Jeff and Amy said...

Wow, I feel truly blessed to have run across your blog. Would love to link it on my blog so I can follow along if you don't mind. I can hear his voice it's just taking that leap of faith when he speaks.

Lil_Birdie said...

13 wow! Have faith and patitence that he is finding you just the right little bees:) Nesting is good ;)

Quinne said...

Hi Kimmie :) Hooray for 13!!!

Thanks for the way you share your heart. Love you so! Q

Kostas said...

Hi Kimmie,
Never I did not occupy figure 13 in my life, I dont believe these.
I believe in symbols as is the Cross, and at the appropriate time I make always this Divine symbol of love, mental peace, and calm!

Velvia said...

Hi Kimmie!
As always, I am so moved and encouraged by your post. It's incredible that you've moved up to number 13. Looking forward to seeing photos of your twins in the very near future!
Love, Velvia

Shawnda said...

OH Kimmie! I love how the Lord speaks to you, sister!!!! He is so good!

#13!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THRILLED for you!!! And continually praying!!!

Foxy5 said...

Wow! I am so excited for you! The word God gave you, the number on the waiting list, the joy I hear in your words! LOVE IT!

(Sorry for all of the "!!" I'm just excited over here)

The Broken Man said...

Hope you don't have too much longer to wait - you are doing an amazing thing adopting so many children. We were getting to the stage of starting adoption proceedings ourselves after 4.5 years of infertility, when my wife unexpectedly got pregnant. I'd like to think that we still will adopt someday...

The Broken Man


Angela said...

Oh prayers for you--number 13! You are so close!

Michelle said...

Tears...you have me choked up.

It's good to have you back. I am so excited for you to be #13!!!!!!


Lil_Birdie said...

Passing this little blog award onto you for all the inspiration contained in your blog :)


Jenni said...

I LOVE that you prayed for the bumblebees (and yes, they were both girls, as females are the only ones who gather nectar and pollen)!

But I love even more that the Lord spoke to you such precious words of comfort and peace. He is so good, all the time, and I am so blessed by your tender heart in hearing Him speak.

Bring on the babies!

tonia said...

He is so good to give us something to hold on to just when we need it. I'm rejoicing with you that God is answering your prayers!

Bless you dear heart.

Bobbie-Jo said...

God IS amazing. That He would take the time to speak to our hearts about DETAILS. God's kids can just come up to Him and talk about the day, like when my kiddos crawl into bed with me in the morning. I'm just flabbergasted, honestly.

I love reading about your conversations with God. You're break sounds like just what you needed.

Good news, too, about #13! Yippeee!

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