My Bountiful Garden...Prayer Request Sunday

I have to say that my two weeks off did me well. Thank you to those of you who were lifting me up in prayer. I needed a reprieve and made time to spend some quality time with the Lord. I needed to hear from Him, as my heart was getting heavy, my spiritual vision was feeling rather dim and I was weary.

God spoke to me a bit the first week-He didn't tell me anything earth moving. But that He was speaking was good, though my heart longed for something deeper and meatier. I left vacation feeling less than rested, our boys (5 and 6) were not the angels we had hoped for. We had hoped to find rest and relaxation, silly I guess, because in reality parenting is 24-7 with no holidays or vacations, right?!

Anyhow, I intended on jumping back into blogging, but my heart was so desperate for God, that I asked Him if I held off on blogging (which to me is a ministry God has given me)...that I wondered if He wouldn't bring me deeper with Him and renew my vision.

Before I left for our vacation, I came to the realization that I had no vision for this adoption we are in the midst of. I spoke to me mum about the fact that I just couldn't "see" it. You see, I am a 'seer', it is a gift that God has blessed me with-but I was coming up with nothing. My mum said it was probably due to the heartache we experienced in our Guatemalan adoption. Fear can kill your godly vision for sure. I went to my Knight and asked him if he could "see." My Knight is not a 'Seer,' though he said he can see us holding our Ethiopian children. This gave me some peace, but I needed more.

God blessed me the second week. He spoke, He spoke a lot and it definitely blessed my heart and mind.

I will share one thing He gave me:

I was reading a devotional by Hudson Taylor (Spiritual Secrets), in it it said to ask the Lord what He wanted 'me' to ask Him. Immediately as I jotted it down in my journal, the Holy Spirit reminded me of something He had spoken several months ago. He had told me to ask Him for twins.

I have to tell you that I was 'Much Afraid,' I was thinking He might be asking just to have me ask and that maybe it had nothing to do with twins. My heart is so aching for a baby after all the years of infertility and all the years I yearned for another, that I was honestly terrified to ask Him or believe Him for it.

I sat on my deck, as my youngest napped and my two oldest were entertained by their Shakespeare scripts, crying. I explained to God my fear, and reminded Him of all I had been through with the years of infertility and how I have followed Him, regardless of the longing in my heart. He told me to ask Him.

So I did.

I thought I should do something else...but He told me to close my bible, my journal and the wee devotional book and instead head into my garden. I had weeding and pruning to do, so I went at it for awhile, then I decided I should pick some flowers for the house.

As I picked a big bouquet filled with beebalm, coneflower, daisies...a nice bunch~ a fat bumblebee began drinking from my hand-held garden.

Being the nut that I am, I began speaking to the fuzzy black and yellow bloke, blessing him and inviting him to have at any or all of my garden. Of course I also prayed over his little bumblebee health, with all the bee troubles we are hearing about... I figured a little bee prayer was appropriate ;-) He mostly ignored me, he was too thirsty to mind my little pep talk-honestly it could have been a she? Then another matching bumblebee came and also began drinking out of my bouquet. I realized how unusual this was, as I hadn't seen too many bees of late, and certainly not any that would be bold enough to drink from my hand held bouquet.

Then the Lord spoke. He told me that this bouquet was my children, it was the fruit of the harvest He had for my life. The two (twin) bumblebees, were the representatives of the two He would give us next, my Ethiopian children. You know children with dark skin and wrapped in all of God's golden promises (black and yellow-get it!). He would bring them to my 'bouquet' (family) and we would see His goodness again. They would be healthy and they would flourish in our bouquet he was picking and allowing me to hold.

Yes, I was crying again.

Yes, I do have moments that I don't cry, though not many. God has made me a tender hearted girl, and one who is feeling so much better.

(As I pasted this from my clipart collection...I didn't realize their were two bumblebees! I have had this for years and God reminded me as I was writing, that I could use this, God is so cool!)

The announcement....

We are now number 13 on our waiting list, for those who are still reading. We are also nesting like crazy. I am cleaning out drawers, cupboards and anything that will let me have at it.

And...yes today is Prayer Request Sunday so....

If you stopped by for prayer...leave me a comment or send me an email, God is amazing.